我的遠距離戀愛/失戀經驗 my long distance relationship/heartbreak - YouTube Angel Chi

From the hairstyle and room/setting i was in, it's obvious that this was filmed quite a while ago when I first moved to Seattle. It was early June when I filmed it, and I finished editing it probably not long after and so... it's been sitting in my laptop for a while... I was cleaning out storage space maybe a month ago when I found it and watched it again. It was pretty eye-opening in a way because the girl in that video talking to me... is me. wow. When I said "I'm still going through it" - the healing part, yea, at the time... I really was. I was still breaking down sometimes when I'm alone or when I'm triggered but, right now... after going through more emotional challenges... I think I can say that I'm finally realizing how loved I am without being loved by a human being. I finally realized how God's love... isn't just about my relationship status - Him "giving me the right person to love me" - His love is SOOOO much more than that. His love is... constantly overflowing in us, through everyone in our lives that care for us. His love is... never-ending and never-failing because... just because. His love....it's the greatest gift we have been given. Yes being in love/in a relationship is an amazing feeling and yes I'd love to spend the rest of my life with someone I love/someone that loves me but... my God... He is enough. He has given me... everything that I need in my life: me. A living, breathing me. Yes my family is also my everything but even if one day they leave this world and I'm still alive... my life won't end. His love won't end. So, the reason why I decided to upload this is because... one, this isn't about my breakup. This isn't about what happened wrong. It's more about... the mindset that I had being in my first + long distance + longgg relationship and... how I healed from it. (Maybe not as much about the healing part since it was still ongoing at the time) Two, I think this could be helpful to many people. Myself included. Every time if I feel like I need a little reminder, I guess it wouldn't hurt to hear my younger self give my older self a lecture haha. I know I talk a lot. I know I share... a lot. but it's really not for sympathy or attention or whatever. I don't ... want those two. I want... to spread love? I want you to feel... understood? That someone can relate to you. Your pain. Your emotions. Everything. You matter. Your feelings matter. It's totally ok to not be okay. You are NOT alone. I want to talk about this as much as I can and reach as many people as I can. Because this is just so important. I know it is. Even if you're not a believer, doesn't it still feel pretty amazing to think that there is that possibility... that someone up there is watching over you and loves you... soooo much... ? Yeah, it's pretty amazing :) I'm really blessed. So incredibly grateful. For my family, my friends, everyone that I've met in my life so far... I'm still learning, still growing, still far from perfect but... I know that I'll never stop trying to be better. To keep doing what God has intended for me to do. To keep doing good and spreading love in whatever way I can. I won't stop. Being me. Being as kind as I can even though sometimes I still fail lol. Thank you for listening to my story. I wish you all the best. With love, from the bottom of my heart, Angel

我的遠距離戀愛/失戀經驗 my long distance relationship/heartbreak - YouTube
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我的遠距離戀愛/失戀經驗 my long distance relationship/heartbreak - YouTube Angel Chi